Friday, April 30, 2021
Hey, You …
It’s been a tough few weeks for me, family. A lot of energy in the air landing super heavy on me. The verdict came through for George Floyd’s murderer and the last thing I felt was happy.
I felt relieved and exhausted.
It wasn’t until the verdict that I began to appreciate how much stress and trauma my body was holding. I let out a big sigh, and then cried and cried and cried, for hours.
When I felt I was ‘finished’ I did what I love most … I went outside.
And, if I hadn’t vowed to myself never to bivouac again, I’d still be outside.
I was outside again a few days ago, thinking about what to write when two gorgeous Baltimore Orioles flew past me. Of course, I instantly grabbed my binoculars to get a closer look, and then my camera, to memorialize the event.
I was snapping away when suddenly the camera went black with a simple message in the viewfinder: There is no battery remaining.
Damn, I thought, the camera is talking about me.
So, I packed everything up and sat there, on the ground. Breathing. Present. Recharging my battery.
I sat until I was ready. Taking in the blessing of seeing beautiful Baltimore Orioles. Not fully recharged … but getting there.
And, I’m still at it. Still recharging, on the super slow speed, no need to rush. What I will do differently – what I know I have to do differently – is not let my batteries run all the way down. I’m no use to myself or to the Orioles when my battery is on zero.
My hope for you is that you don’t run your batteries down. I hope you recharge with beauty all around you. And, I hope you know you deserve it.
P.S. But of course I went back the next day and got pics of those Orioles! Ha!
Baltimore Orioles, Silver Spring, MD (Female is on the bottom right.)