It’s OK

Thursday, April 30, 2020

9:03 PM

Hey, You …

I try to write my letters by the 15th of the month, to give myself the procrastination space to actually make it the 20th, then maybe proof by the 22nd, to get letters in the mail by the 25th.

I fail every month and forgive myself generously.

This month is different.  This past month has been different in every way, not just for letters.  These past two months have been different … for everyone … for the world.

And guess what … I usually don’t even know what day it is.  Forget the actual date, I mean I’m having trouble remembering what day of the week it is without referring to my phone.

I’m ok, y’all … mentally, I mean.  I’m thinking this is a by-product of being in day one million of lockdown because of Ms. Corona.  Most days are just like the one before and before and before.

And I can’t go to Rick’s Sunday yoga class.

And I can’t catch the kid’s breakfast special after Rick’s Sunday yoga class.

And I can’t catch a movie after breakfast.

And I can’t go to Panera and order a hot chocolate with extra chocolate chip marshmallows so I can sit for hours working and sipping and looking and sipping and sipping and sitting.

And I have to log in to a machine or an app to see my friends.

And now it’s way past even the 25th of the month.

And I don’t even know what to write about because today is like yesterday like the day before and probably tomorrow, too.

And, it’s ok.

But it took me a while to be ok with it.  It took me about three weeks for it to register there’s less and less to register.

I’ve told you about this before.

Having to do and do and do.  Having to be here there and everywhere.  I need to.  I have to.   There’s somewhere I need to be.  There’s something I need to do.

And, it’s all gotten me back here again this month.

Actually, in my favorite place.

Sitting crossed leg (left shin in front, I need to switch soon), on my bed, writing to you.

Writing my Meechie Mail super late.

And learning.

That it’s ok.



P.S.  Given our collective time-out situation, I asked for suggestions from my Meechie Mob on what to check out on various streaming services, etc.  Here’s a few things I’ve loved so far …

Ozarks (Netflix)                

Shrill (Hulu)

Little Fires Everywhere (Hulu)

Gentefied (Netflix)

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